Journey 5-22-05

Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit of itself, it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples. John 15:4,8

My greatest desire and prayer request is that I remain in Christ and let Him be my strength! I tend to want to plan and make things happen. This time in my life is a great growing experience for me as EVERYTHING revolves around God’s provision, prompting and timing. (It always does but sometimes I see more ways to “help God out” and here I’m at a place where I can’t DO anything on my own). I can’t think of anything in this process of moving to Hungary that God isn’t using to teach me more about Him and my need for total dependence on Him.

Recently I heard someone use the word desperation when describing how we should live in our relationship with God. Through this week, as I’ve looked at the support I have and the support I need, I’ve realized the need for true desperation before God. I know He has called me and that without His intervention in the hearts and lives of people to partner in ministry I am not able to go. Without His intervention all will my best efforts amount to nothing. When I look at the call and I look at the need, God fills my heart with a desperation to see His hand at work so that He may be glorified. Realizing my total dependence upon Him is a good place to be, but stepping out and living in that abiding dependence on Jesus Christ on a daily basis is hard. Pray that as I learn to abide more that it will be to the Father’s glory in my life. This is my heart’s desire.

Journey 5-11-05

By faith Abraham, even though he was past age – and Sarah herself was barren – was enabled to become a father because he considered him faithful who had made the promise. And so from this one man, and he as good as dead, came descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as countless as the sand on the seashore. Hebrews 11:11-12 NIV

I was listening to a song this week that painted the picture of Abraham, near the end of his days, laying on his back on the desert floor, falling asleep while counting stars. As I pondered that image, I thought about a man who had seen God’s faithfulness over and over throughout his days.

Can you imagine Abraham looking back at all God had done and then drifting off to sleep counting, anticipating the future fulfillment of God’s promise that his descendants would be as numerous as the stars in the sky? (Gen 15:5) As I reflect on God’s call in my life, directing me to Hungary, I can see His hand at work and His faithfulness displayed. I can only imagine how I will look back at the end of my days and see promises fulfilled. I look forward to the journey.